I never thought I’d wake up to find you gone from my side. I never thought I’d ever wake up to see you leave without telling me. It still hurts to breath the air here. It hurts not to breath at all. But then again I don’t think it would matter…if you didn’t really care to bother. But I don’t know what hurts more…to breath at all…or to know you could do me such a thing and still hear the echos of your laughter.
How could you walk away?
How could you leave me all alone?
Why did you do such a thing? I don’t know. I don’t think I will know unless you tell me. Without warning you still would distance me from your arms. Without glancing back, you would distance me from your eyes. But I never though you would distance me from who you are. From what we both live on.
It’s still hard to breath.
It’s still so hard to breath.
It’s so hard to swim in the vindictiveness of who I am. I have half a mind to leave you wondering what happened to me when you didn’t look back. But I won’t do it. I won’t do it because its wrong. I won’t do it because I want to be a better person. I won’t do it because somewhere in there I know you love me. I won’t do it because I love you.
It’s hard to keep writing this.
I can’t breath properly. I can’t breath at all.
Then again you wouldn’t know it. You never looked back.
Whatever will happen, I love you and I know you love me too. Whatever will happen, remember that peace won’t just come from laying down in our arms. Whatever will happen, remember that peace comes from giving in to ourselves and to each other. To have and to hold pieces of our soul we can’t do without.
That is something we can never walk away from.