You know…it never ceases to amaze me that life can turn something so good into something so horrible in a blink of an eye. No…I’m not talking about myself. It’s…a family thing. Maybe in due time I can explain it. But all the same, how does the happiest moment of your life come crashing down upon you in a blink of an eye? It’s one of those surreal moments where you hear it happen to people…yet never thought it could happen to the people closest to you.
It’s can be ok if that bad thing happens to just you. At least that way you can control the damage on your own sweet time. But what if you drag everyone with you? Family and even people outside your family? What happens when the concequence of your actions ripple through everyone in your life…tearing at everything it touches especially the people closest to you?
I don’t know what this particular situation or event can mean to me. Maybe it serves as a warning to the things I do, or maybe as a warning to the people who read this blog that even the best times can be ruined by the consequence of past choices or even a random chip of fate. Maybe it’s just an event where I have to deal with it as a family member and as a person who I am. Maybe it’s just one of those messages for the future that will come eventually. I do not know. But I do know that this particular situation I have no control off…even though it is within my family.
I can do what i can when I am asked of it. If I’m given an opportunity, I can do what I can to make the best of it. But knowing my family…it would be rare that I get that opportunity. I for one am not close to my familly and maybe that’s another message to how this problem happened in the first place.
It’s hard to understand what life wants out from you especially when you haven’t yet lived long in this life. it’s harder to make sense of the bulk of events that happen all at once when you’re struggling to uncoil yourself from the concequence of it. Maybe that’s why we rarely spend time to appreciate or respect the ups and downs of life. All we can see is that we deal in the now and try not to dwell on what has done. Do what we can to keep the most practical objective frame of mind. Then step back and embrace whatever we feel.
Of course…things are easier said than done. But at least…if you know…you’ve got to try. Hope that’s what I can do for my family.