Life…

You guys know what? Life is weird… it’s like when there’s nothing going on in your life, your life is pretty much boring and uninteresting… Then there’s the once you start to get busy…you have tonnes of other things to do… Then there’s the mentally and emotionally draining one where one day out of the blue you get this phone call or something that ruined your day…and for the succeeding week or so you just don’t know what to expect because bad things just happens one after another! The worst case scenario is when you get physically AND mentally AND emotionally drained…
 
Just like life now… I pretty much knew that ed was leaving for Australia a while back…things were ok and we both had normal days… Going to college and back…having fun…just talking together… Then suddenly ‘the day’ grew closer…and it hit us that we only have a few more days to be together… I have like 2 assignments and one quiz all due right after he is about to leave but i still want to spend all my time with him before he leaves! What’s weird is that in this same week all my friends have been calling me to go out for God knows what! i told them i’ll be free the moment he’s in Australia… To top it of…i’ve been getting anonymous messages which freaked me out! Now that he’s over there… My life is pretty much unbalanced as i have a long week of juggling with assignments and quizzes and friends and my tuition and of course…missing him…
 
Doesn’t everyone just wish that they can just have peace and quiet with it’s occasional minor ups or downs…? Why does the big guy up there want to challenge us by dumping all these calamities and tragedies and chanlleges and demands all in one go? Life is unfair isn’t it? It always is… But you guys know what? As much as i think that life is unfair…It is the thing that helps us build up our soul and our minds… It helps shape us… Helps us know our true self and with that…help us to actually help ourselves…
 
I mean…think about it… without all the really challenging months and weeks…we don’t know who we actually are and all… It’s like…our life basically is a routine over and over and over until this kind of chanllenges kick in… We get up…we go to work/classes…we come back…we talk to our friends and family about the same old things or just tell them about what happen in the day… But what if suddenly your loved one is not there to talk to you everyday? You have to find the courage to be strong and find another means of letting yourself go… What if suddenly all your friends have trouble and they all need your help? You have to to show what a good planner/tactician you are to juggle between your work and friends… Life is just full of what ifs that we need to work on and plan on…

OK…i realise that i’m beggining to crap a lot here now because i’m struggling to juggle between all my work and the lost of his companionship here… but hey…at lesat i’m working on it! šŸ˜› so i better stop now and finish off my work before i fail my semester… I’ll leave the blog entry as it is now… Toddles!! šŸ™‚

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