Why is it everytime after I blog with a peaceful mind about it all, I get something that gives me a complete 180 towards how I feel? Why is it after I spend the day putting together the pieces of my life, it comes crashing down to know the things I shouldn’t even feel bad about?
How the hell do I stop this?
I found the song for the moment when Sarah stopped playing Groban songs on random.
Am I faithful, am I strong, am I good enough to belong?
In your reverie a perfect girl.
Your vision of romance is cruel and all along I played the fool.
All you expectations bury me.
Don’t worry you will find the answer if you let it go.
Give yourself some time to falter.
But don’t forgo knowing that you’re loved no matter what.
And everything will come around in time.
I own my insecurities I try to own my destiny.
That I can make or break it if I choose.
But you take my words and twist them round.
Til I’m the one who brings you down.
Make me feel like I’m the one to blame for all of this…
You need everybody with you on your side.
Know that I am here for you but I hope in time.
You’ll find yourself alright alone.
You’ll find yourself with open arms.
You’ll find yourself you’ll find yourself in time.
The riot in my heart decideds to keep me open and alive.
I have to take myself away from you.
Cause I can’t compete I can’t deny there’s nothing that I didn’t try.
How did I go wrong in loving you.
It’s late I know…but I don’t think I should be here trying so hard to tear my own heart out to stop feeling the pain. I need to get out of the house. I need to take a walk. If only to give myself my own comfort.
What else can that dark night give me anyway?