Sociopath Wannabe…?

Reading through the 7th book of Anita Blake again, it brought back something I’ve wondered for quite a while. Can any one of us get to a point whereby we could kill without remorse, without regret? We take a person’s life and sleep soundly at night, never letting it bother you?

In Anita Blake there is a point where she wonders if she is more a monster than the ones she kills simply not because she has no regret over her actions, but because it doesn’t bother her that she has no regret. How does a person come to that state? I can understand the years of training and maybe abuse to come to that. But what about the ones of us who lead almost normal (and slightly dysfunctioanal) lives? Can one turn sociopathic in the space of a few years or even months without realising they walked off the abyss?

Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to be a true sociopath. To feel no remorse, not guilt, no compassion towards what society dubs as wrong. To feel nothing really towards nothing but the world you built around yourself. Would I get to a point where I would enjoy the thrill of hunting a person? Most probably. What about to kill someone? Maybe…I don’t know. Depends how far across that abyss I walked.

Oh how far have the mighty fallen from grace…when all we can think off is blood’s metallic taste?

3 thoughts on “Sociopath Wannabe…?

  1. “Man is something that ought be overcome.” (Nietzsche)

    Now, I consider myself a humanitarian, I love to live around people and find their company an important and life-affirming aspect of my existence. I know how to care for people and things – I think – but I am always amused at how people can be so concerned with benevolence, kindness, selflessness, regret, morality, guilt and fear. I had thought these notions so out-of-date.

    I was curious about your post, so I tried an informal online test and curiously found that I qualify as a ‘sociopath’. Peculiar label. Either way, I’ve come here to explain exactly what its like to be a ‘sociopath’.

    1) I feel nothing towards anyone. I don’t care about you, but I love to make you think I do. Any deep feelings of animosity are temporary and I can shake them off.

    2) I know I am too strong to be concerned with the trivial circumstances of social rituals. I do not adhere to the law or any other force – I abide by it.

    3) I don’t care if you don’t like me. I want your attention. I want something exciting and life-affirming. I could kill you in your sleep and not feel a thing – but frankly, why the hell would I go to that trouble for some-one as worthless as you? Serial killers and saintly volunteer workers are weak individuals.

    Anyway, thank-you for your post – it was quite fascinating!

  2. Anthony. Your comment reads like you read it from wikipedia. You’ve read a list of sociopathic traits, re-written it and posted it on here. Your self-diagnosis of sociopathy based on a single online quiz is embarassing. You’re a disgrace.

  3. Kamigoroshi:

    I’d imagine the subjective experience would be no different from the way you feel right now. The biggest difference would be in the way you perceive the world around you. Right now, when something bad happens to other people, it’s a big deal for you. It’s almost like something has happened to you personally. For a sociopath, it’s more like something happened to an object. If it’s an object that you were fond of for some reason, you might be unhappy with the effect it will have on your life, but you wouldn’t feel any more compassion for the person in question than you would for your favorite pen were it to break. You may fake it if if you think it will help, similar to the way you might try to repair that broken pen, but ultimately the person, like the pen, is replaceable.

    Whether you’d get to the point where you enjoyed hunting people has more to do with other personal traits. Do you get pleasure out of breaking inanimate objects? How about killing friendly NPCs in single player video games? Unless there’s a purpose, for example advancement or revenge (like destroying a car or appliance that has annoyed and frustrated you one too many times), why put yourself or your image in danger? Even if there wasn’t any risk involved, why bother?

    I think people misunderstand sociopathy as something that requires criminal or malicious intent, and it is, in fact, part of the official diagnostic criteria; however, there is no broader diagnosis which applies only to those without conscience or a heart-felt sense of right or wrong. In my opinion, this constitutes the actual disorder, and the rest is all a matter of individuality and preference.

    For example, it seems crazy to come create separate disorders for obsessive types who take a particular interest in sports, video games, people, fashion, etc. Take away the obsessive traits, and you have a normal person who wouldn’t spend unhealthy amounts of time or resources on their favorite hobby; however, if you take away the hobby instead, you’re still left with an obsessive person whose disorder will find another way to manifest. I see Sociopathy in much the same way. If you take away the destructive tendencies, you’ll still have a human being with no inherent sense of right or wrong, without a conscience. If you give that man a conscience, though, he’ll become more honest and he’ll do damage to property instead of people.

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