The Conversation In The Dark…

Well, it certainly has been a long time since we met this way.

Who are you?

Do we really have to go through that again?

I guess not.

Good because I don’t know how long this conversation would last anyway.

It’s always shorter than it should be isn’t it?

I suppose so…but that’s not why I’m here for in the first place.

What are you here for then?

I don’t think that was the question you wanted to ask me.

Why does this have to happen to me?

It happened because of a reason.

I think that was my question in the first place.

*Sigh* It happened because it was meant to happen.

That still doesn’t answer my question.

It’s the best you’re going to get out of me at this point…but I believe you have more than just that question.

I suppose we haven’t got all night. Why do I always walk alone? Why was I born as this monster everyone runs away from?

It is because you were born that way…but you weren’t born a monster.

Then why do I keep walking alone?

I didn’t say you aren’t monster now.

I don’t think I get you.

You always needed me to guide you through this don’t you? You know this as well as I do. We all are who we choose to become.

Are you saying I choose to become the monster so that I can be alone?

Maybe that’s exactly what it is.

BUT IT WOUOLDN’T HURT THIS MUCH UNLESS I DESIRE PEOPLE TO BE WITH IN THE FIRST PLACE!!

Think about how you were when you’re young. Think about the times you had people you could share with…think about the times you lost them as well. Think about the pain you lived through as a child. That pain…that torment of being alone. Never loved by anyone the way a child should be loved.

Stop it.

Never accepted.

Stop it!!

Never appreciated.

STOP IT!!

What do you want me to say? That things will be better? You know deep inside that things will never be betterfor as long as the world is the way it is. You were never a monster by birth. You had a gift from birth. A gift that COULD change the face of humanity as you and I know it. You just choose to be the monster because that’s what everyone sees in you. You said it yourself…it’s easier to believe the worst in people than the best in them.

Are you saying I’m unconsciously driving people away?

I’m saying no one else I know except her understands the darkness of human nature as well as you do. I’m saying you always did what is best needed done. Whether by accident or on purpose. Even if you hurt someone, or let yourself be hurt by people. You’ve always done it in the best interest of the situation. You were never a pawn…even if you act like one.

So you’re saying she did what needed to be done.

You changed the subject.

You brought her up.

So I did. Yes…she did do what needed to be done. She isn’t unlike you. It is the price both of you pay for being born the way you were.

It’s not something I can accept. You know I’d fight this till the end.

But it’s convienient for you to accept it in yourself…in your own actions? For the same reasons you hate her…she hates you in the same way.

I don’t hate her.

But it’s part of love isn’t it? And you do love her.

I hate you.

Isn’t that why we get along so well? Sometimes you fight what you are, and sometimes you give in to it. And some nights you just don’t want to fight yourself anymore, so you pick someone else to fight. That’s another reason why they only want you when they need something from you. You’re not the best person to confront with his own issues.

Say what you want. It’s still my own life to lead.

As it is mine and don’t you forget that or this conversation for that matter because I think you do have to go…the sun is up.

I hope I never have to talk to you again.

Oh I have no doubt you’ll hear from me again. Every whisper in the dark. Every echo in silence. You’ll always hear from me.

See you…for now.

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