Don’t you just hate it when you have a good day…then everything becomes as crappy as a melted ice on the sidewalk? I mean, I’ve had a few people people today including myself have a good day then turn out completely bad by the end of the day. Is this some reality based conspiracy? Are our lives on some divine candid show where omnipotent superbeings tune in to amuse themselves on our plight? I seriously don’t know.
All I can say that provoked me to say this is that everyone is a hypocrite and an idiot. I’m not talking about some of my coursemates whom I like to tear their heart out with a wooden spoon. Unfortunately I’m referring to myself, like why I did a stupid thing for the sake of saving myself and avoiding my fear…even though I know it’s wrong (and often tell people not to do it). I don’t think it’s a good time to say exactly what happened. But all I can say is it’s a responsibility which I need to settle it myself. I just feel sorry about it and as much as I know I can’t change the past, I know I’d have to do everything in my power to make it up for my mistake.
On the ligher side of things…do you notice how vain people always are? I mean, how often do y ou look at yourself in the mirror. Hell, I know I do when it’s available. It’s like “Good lord….I’ve got a hair out of place, must put it back otherwise the world will fly out of it’s orbit and locusts will plague the lands. Ooops, here comes someone from the toilet now. Act natural now. (smiles at passer by)“.
Never never will you ever hear a person say “I’ve got pimples all over the place, my hair is bald in several places, and I’ve got hair growing out of my ears and nose…looking good you stud.” Of course you’d never hear a person say that unless he’s lived his entire life as a neanderthal…and even that is too good.
Guess I have alot of things to ponder tonight, I wonder why it never goves me a fright. First I’ve got to solve my little personal dilemma, then maybe ponder on that vanity issue. I got to get some sleep soon, It’s been a long day…maybe the answers will come to me again in my dream.