Song of the 38th Hour: Guns N Roses - Paint It Black
I spent an hour in the shower…without the water running. It seems to be a habit of mine to always retreat into the bathroom and spend time in there whenever I get really depressed…usually with the hot shower pounding my head and back. The [...]

Song of the 37th Hour: Russel Watson - Faith Of The Heart
I seriously give up. 24 hours ago if you asked to keep blogging dispite the fact my server was down I would have told you yes. But now, I don’t know whether I have enough strength to push on like this knowing that my [...]

Song of the 36th Hour: Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated
I really cannot take it anymore., one way or another I’m feeling the pain either way. It’s either the frustration of loss or the frustration of…well…loss really. Because I haven’t been asleep for the past 37-38 hours, my mind tends to wander alot and usually I only [...]

Song of the 35th Hour: DJ Sammy - Heaven (9-11 Tribute Version)
I seriously do not know what to do now. I am at a total loss about it. At this point I am physically and mentally drained. This is what I mean when I say when I start to win in life, it just raises [...]

Song of the 34th Hour: Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You
This is starting to become a real nightmare. Why does this have to happen to me? I mean seriously. Why can’t the stupid server just work with me when I want it to? I’ve been thinking of really shifting my server to somewhere [...]