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February 25, 2015 – 21:34
I would have taken a photo of the crumpled sheets of paper that were in my waste basket had Melissa not emptied them out earlier in the evening. Bin night you see.
I have been trying to write a letter for my unborn kid for the past week. Handwritten that is, to be kept for her along with the other words of wisdom, until her 18th birthday. It's a cool sentiment that some part of my brain scoffs because it believes I'm going to offer those words before she reaches 18 anyway. It doesn't matter. It's a plan. Which is a damn sight more than I have at this moment.
Thing is, I'm terrified and excited at the same time. I know it's a normal reaction to one's first expected kid, but the reality of facing it is wholly different. Honestly if you were to tell me ten years ago that I would be married, with a kid along the way, in a house that I own, I would laugh at you for imagining a road that I wasn't going to take. Not because I never planned to, but because I couldn't see myself giving up the life I had for one I didn't even expect.
Yet now, I'm sitting here writing about how I can't think of how to start the first of many letters to my daughter. So much for best laid plans.
Maybe the lesson here is that sometimes life doesn't always go according to plan, especially of you are the one that made the choice to deviate from those plans. You have to live with them, and more to it, is that you have to make the best of them. Just as I am doing now, for a family I never expected. For a life, that I always put a back seat to as figments of my imagination. The reality is that I still want the best things in life, and regardless of what I am going through now, that desire has never changed. Nor should it.
I don't think the next letter is going to find itself crumpled in the waste basket. I just hope my kid can read what is is I'm writing. It's a long time still to perfect my handwriting, but this first one is still going to be a doozy.
January 28, 2015 – 00:06
I keep saying that I want to return to this blog, but it's more like at the end of the day I have nothing to say because honestly there is nothing in my life. That and the fact that Facebook has become a more constructive outlet to my thoughts than this blog has become.
Almost a year ago, I said I would return to this blog, provided that I find some kind of reason fr it. That reason though has been harder to find that I thought. I think in part, is because I have yet to find a reason to my life in the years after I made the conscious choice to leave my ambitions behind. So it has felt like I've been floating in a state of pointlessness for the past few years. This blog, which has been the outlet for my thoughts and focus, is collateral damage to the now empty state of dreams.
It doesn't mean that I haven't tried to find something worthwhile to attach myself to. Maybe I have but I just don't see it. Maybe I see it, but just don't have the will to start over from scratch. Either way, ambitions that leave with it a legacy don't come cheap and they don't come without hard work. They do however come in the form of roving opportunities to which I have to seize on my own.
I think I have a couple in my hand now. I just have to figure out how I can make it grow.
September 3, 2014 – 22:41
Note: I wrote this about a week ago with the intention of posting it up with the appropriate photo when the mood stuck me. Given the recent celebrity nude photo leak/hack. I figure it would be a good time to put this up. Which also meant I had to get creative with the photo.
They say that privacy is dead. As someone who grew up during the early years of the internet, I always considered it to be an overly sensitive headline. Something people who can't keep up with the ever changing pace of technology would say. I say it differently. I say that privacy is not dead. It never was. Privacy is very much alive. It is anonymity that is dead.
I recently updated my phone to the latest version of Windows Phone and with it, finally bringing Microsoft's own digital personal assistant to the game, alongside iOS's Siri and Google's Google Now. The first most obvious thing I realised going through all the options is that for Cortana to work to its fullest potential, I have to allow her to access almost every part of my digital footprint. Location, emails, social networks, interests and most definitely by default, search metadata.
Thing is, I accepted these conditions right away, leaving them to default as they were. It was the same as when I activated Google Now on my Nexus 7, allowing Google to go through my data. As much as I, an educated and experienced user of the digital age, understand that I am allowing these companies to go through my data for their own profit, I am also being given a service that would help me make my life easier.
A lot of armchair privacy advocates would say that such casual openess with our personal information is a portent of doom and gloom, heck, my mother regularly chastises me with my openness on social networks. However I don't think this is necessarily true. Like how we have dealt with privacy in a pre-digital age, a lot of what we put out comes down to common sense. I like to think that this is why older non tech savvy relatives and inexperienced mobile phone generationals fail so badly when it comes to digital privacy. Both age groups have no idea what they are doing.
Let's put it in a simpler context. Whenever I am tasked with the option of sharing my information on a digital level, I always ask myself two important questions.
1. Am I comfortable with the possibility that everyone will know what I will be sharing online?
2. Are there any adverse consequences to myself and the people around me should people know what I will be sharing online?
If I answer yes for the first and no for the second, then I'm all set to put whatever I want up online. This doesn't mean that privacy is dead, it means you have a choice on what you want to leave as private.
So now, we'll put this in a non-digital context. Let's say I have a fairly offensive shirt that goes along the lines of "I hate black gay Jews" (Obvious disclaimer: I don't own a shirt like this and I have no bias against race, the LGBT community, and religion). I'll ask myself the very same questions as above. Am I comfortable wearing it in public? Of course I wouldn't be so that puts an end to publicly displaying it, but for the sake of argument, let's assume I'm one of the worst kinds of bigots. Are there any adverse consequences should I wear it in public? Given the polarising social backlash of the current climate, it's obvious there would be. So even if I am some kind of homophobic racist (I stress again, I am not one), common sense dictates I shouldn't wear something like that in public.
If people apply the same kind of common sense to the digital world, it is perfectly clear that privacy has never died. We have a choice, and we will always have a choice on what we choose to share with others. What internet takes away from us and I think that's what many people are struggling to realise is that you're no longer another face in the crowd.
Sure, at the end of the day, we can be catagorised as just part of a larger subset of data for corporations to make use of. However, in that data lies core information of who we are. Name, age group, income bracket, interests. People will argue that the knowledge of this alone is a violation of privacy, but it's no different from pre-digital era data mining. If that kind of personal detail is the basis of privacy violations, then privacy was dead a long time before the internet came of age.
It's thanks to the digital age, that it's easier to process large amounts of information to put a face to the data that corportations want. It doesn't mean that they will know your most intimate secrets (unless you lack the common sense to put it for all to see), it just means that they know enough to sell you the things it thinks you need. The more you're willing to let it identify who you are, the better those services are for you. It's a trade off in that your face, literally and metaphorically, will be the key to a more convienient lifestyle. Everything else about you is inconsequential, unless you're willing to share it, and that maintains a level of privacy that people seem to forget they still have.
Addendum: When the news broke that a lot of private celebrity photos were leaked online, the backlash and outrage naturally followed the wave. One side seems to think that it was stupid of them to upload their photos onto a secure cloud. Others think that there is no difference from this incident and having your own home burgled with your private and intimate life taken and shown for the world to see. I think that, realistically at the end of the day, even though celebrities are human like the rest of us, deserving of private moments, it is their very nature as celebrities that makes them a target for people who have nothing better to do in their lives, except to ruin someone else's day. It never excuses idiots from doing such a thing, but it means that as people in the spotlight, celebrities need to have an extra awareness of what goes on in their lives in order to maintain a standard of privacy.
To end it, let's go back to Siri/Google Now/Cortana, and why I'm fine with giving them just enough personal information for them to work. If we consider actual personal assistants who manage the schedules of the wealthy and perpetually busy, they manage their bosses schedule for up to months at a time, they know where their bosses are and should be at any present time, they take their phone calls and messages should their bosses be busy, and they know what their bosses tastes enough to show them what they need to know and how they need to know.
I now have the more affordable version of that assistant in my pants, I just have to give up a few things like having my own coffee delivered personally in the morning. I'm sure I can live with that.
February 19, 2012 – 13:25
You can never live your life without making mistakes. Yet your life after all is never defined by the mistakes you make, but what you do with them. While a black stroke will ensure that the best you will ever get in your life is a grey palette, it is up to you, the artist of your own canvas, to determine how best to accentuate the brightness in your masterpiece called life with shadows and highlights.
Unforgettable mistakes doesn't mean the end of the world. It just means you have to work a little harder to turn it into something that won't spoil the entire picture, and with time and experience, perhaps, turn it into something people would pay you a whole lot to see for themselves.
September 7, 2011 – 10:52
The thing about Deus Ex is that it has always touched upon transhumanism. It is the west's own version to the the masterpiece of Japanese Anime, Ghost in the Shell (both the movies and series). With technology comes the ability to do the things we could never have done as mere human beings. Both Ghost in the Shell and Deus Ex touches upon the consequences of those abilities and they are pretty good at bringing those issues to light.
In DXHR though, one of the main issues is how will the rest of the world deal with the idea we can be capable of so much more through the technology we created. As a man of science, I'm more inclined to go with the idea that the progression of science and technology has dammning consequences only to those who aren't able to put it to good use.
Technology itself was never corruptible, but human beings are. We after all are a byproduct, locked into several million years of evolution thanks to our ability to change the environment to our needs, rather than the other way around. The human mind, through biology and ultimately culture has defined its own limitations of what we can or cannot do. As such many people place such mistrust on what technology, which has the ability to bypass those barriers, can do to the limitations that we have come to believe or even rely on for so long.
So in Deus Ex or Ghost in the Shell, I fully welcome the ability to be more than what's defined to be human. I fully welcome the idea that the human consciousness can be nothing more than a collection of unique data in a specialised hardware properly optimised for the user. What it means for me is that by mastering and perhaps surpassing my physical shell, I can attain a state where the infinite free flow of information will allow me to understand and accomplish anything. You know, answering the ultimate question of life, the universe, and everything.
Of course that would mean that whatever beliefs, whatever ideals and compulsions and impulses that you have right now as a human being would have to be challenged, and most likely discarded. The real issue isn't whether or not we are able to transcend human flesh. It is whether we will be able to transcend the human mind. Whether we as human beings are able to put away notions and conceptions of an old world when a new one is upon our very bodies.
There will always be resistance and even more dangerously, there will always be people with old world minds in new world bodies, having all that power, for a cause that is as archaic as we we first established dominant communities. What is important is that we have to realise, whether through ignorance or a conviction of character and principle, majority of the people are not and will not be readily give up their definitions or conceptions as a human being. Through that will be the more powerful people who would take advantage of that ignorance and nature of those people for their own gain. It isn't technology allowing us to perpetuate this, it is ourselves that give this free reign. It is our human nature to, one centuries of technological advancement cannot run away from.
Ultimately transhumanism isn't about the technology we slap on ourselves regardless of whether we're biologically enhanced or mechanically augmented, it is in the mindset we hold on to. The responsibilities we partake when we carry the ability to do more than we are previously capable of doing. All the advancements in the world isn't going to change the fact we're still trying to fight the inner beast that has existed in ourselves for thousands of years. It time at least to start leaving that battle behind. To acknowledge and understand that it has served us well, then embrace and develop it to bring it in line to a world that has long tried to keep it in a dark box. When we've let go of that secret shame, only then can we start working towards a mindset that redefines what it means to be human, to be transhuman in more than just body.
Until that day comes, there will always be those that will be left behind, those that will want to control the people that are left behind, and those that are helpless to do anything about it because they are too far ahead to understand what the problem is about. Such is a long troublesome road.
To think there would be much thought and philosophizing from a simple game. You bet it's a damn good one.
Warning: The link I've posted contains endgame spoilers throughout the second half of the article. Read at your own risk if you haven't played or such things don't bother you. Feel free to go through it if you've already finished the game. Deus Ex: Human Revolution Is About DRM