In the aftermath of a year’s worth of hard work, all that needs doing now is wrapping up the loose ends. Even so, the work ahead isn’t as mentally draining as what I’ve been through for the past few months. At the very least, I can take this time to recuperate with a little peace of mind, which is always a nice thing in my life.

Yet as a prelude to the next chapter of the story, I find another future uncertain. Even as I return for a brief period to the one I hold most dear, I realise I may be losing someone else that has meant more than I am willing to admit over the past few months.

The thought is, as always, unsettling to know that good people in your life never seem to stick around, while the worst characters you’ve ever met seem to leech off you like some parasite. Yet maybe because I’m growing wiser or because I’ve become more apathetic or maybe even because something inside broke over the past few months, that I’ve been less than inclined to dwell on the impending loss and spend more time trying to make do with more pressing matters in my life.

But I have to deal with it one way or another. She does mean a lot to me and for the most part, she is one of the few friends that have succeeded in making that much of an impact in my life. Which is a round about way of saying, I’m willing to risk poking my head outside the boundaries of a platonic feeling to express how much she means to me. Of course, some things shouldn’t be said under some situations. This is no exception, but I’m willing to chuck away some common sense for a measure seeing what tomorrow brings.

If I am never going to see her again anyway, what I’ve always learned is to make the best of it. There is an old Latin phrase that means “there is no safety net for the dying”. It’s a lesson I’ve always taken to heart in the worst of times. This may not be one of those “end of the world” situations I usually face, but the lesson still stands.

Even if you know it’s not going to change the inevitable, the impact will at least show them what they mean to you. For some people, by reasons that are your own, are worth doing whatever it takes to keep them by your side. After all, people always come and go, that is inevitable in life, but it’s the rare diamonds in the rough that more than makes up for the rest of it.

You just have to work on them long enough to let it shine in the brilliance of what it was meant to be.

5 thoughts on “Aftermath

  1. There’s always an element of danger in expressing non platonic feelings. There is no going back once it’s done. If you travel down that path, I hope the friendship is strong enough to endure it.

    Good luck and well done on getting through the year’s hard work 🙂

  2. Almostloved: Doesn’t stop us from wishing that sometimes, the best things in life remain one of the best things in our lives.

    Cléa: Oddly enough I have walked down that road and paid for it in many ways. We just have to remember that at the end of the day, it’s not what’s been said that makes a difference, it’s what we do after that that changes everything.

    Thanks a lot and come back from your sabbatical soon! 🙂

  3. many people walk in and out of our lives but only true friends leaves footprints in your heart.

    cherish the moments you have and may you hold on to the memories you had. one day you will look back and smile.

  4. Estherchin: Or frown. Nothing gets me down more than realizing in the darkest of times that all the good friends you have never stay on.

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