Sometimes no matter how many times you say you’re sorry, it’s still not going to change the fact that you’re the one that made the mistake and you’re accountable for it.
You might be tempted to get away with giving excuses, but regardless of what can be said, there is no denying that it was your fault. But I’m guessing that’s not why I feel sick to my stomach.
The thing is, regardless of mistakes, many things are forgivable in life. Especially if they are first time offenses that are completely accidental. The problem with this is that the people that I like tend to, like me, have a vindictive personality that’s as forgiving as the members of the Spanish inquisition.
If however, you like me were perceptive enough to pick up the key word “people that I like”, you’d begin to get the bigger picture of things. It’s one thing of course to feel tiny and scared when people are mad at you for things you know you did wrong. It’s another to have the people you like be mad at you for the things you know you shouldn’t have done wrong.
It’s not hard to guess now why I feel sick to my stomach. I really do not like this feeling at all.