Every once in a while, even in the middle of a war, we all need to relax. To take a break from the rigors of our duties and responsibilities, if only for a moment, in order to regroup and recharge a mind that can’t handle pressure on a constant basis.
For the past few days, that’s exactly what I’ve been doing, at least between intervals of work that I feel I’m way behind on. With any luck, these little breaks don’t take too much time off my busy schedule and give my muse the much needed inspiration to finish my work. Though if anything, taking a break from work for me involves a healthy dose of…well…working.
If would seem that by goofing off, I find myself immersed in the same predicament as my work. Tinkering in things I don’t understand in order to try and attain the things that are usually out of reach. As a result, I usually end up in predicaments that have no safety net. I often find myself in situations where I am unable to ask for help or can’t be helped at all because I’m either too far gone or the situation is too new for the people around me.
It would seem paradoxical that the very thing that usually is the cause of stressing me out would be the very same thing that comforts me. Over the years, I’ve come to rely on the unpredictability of the unknown. In a way, I take comfort in the fact that there are always people to help, objects to tinker and things to learn. Even if my patience wears thin, I would still feel a lot more at ease than if I was faced in a situation where I did nothing.
My best guess is, that it is my nature to do so, to live this kind of life. Being too inquisitive and curious for my own good has always lead me to more trouble than I can handle on my own. But I’ve lived with it. I’ve dealt with the results and faced those consequences. As much as I complain that I am a one man show, I’m also proud at the fact that I am a one man show. The things I’ve seen. The things I’ve learned. The things I’ve accomplished. Done all on my own, no matter how small or inconsequential it is to others.
If the road to relaxation is a bumpy one, then it is the end of that road which I find my euphoric satisfaction.
Now that at least makes sense.
That being said, over the weekend, I’ve managed to take my old laptop apart in order to turn it into a monitor-less media box with torrent downloading functions. It can be remotely controlled by my computers over the network and over the net.
While I’ve done this before when I first had the idea, there was a new approach I wanted to try that lead me to doing some radical and experimental modifications that I didn’t know were possible to all my systems. But it’s done and it works. It’s not 100% to what I want but it’s the best I can do on a “leisurely” pace. With hope, this system will serve me even when I’m overseas for a couple of months at the end of the year. At least, that is the plan.
Here is to a little elbow grease and a whole lot of jerry rigging. Sometimes they do work without catastrophic failures.