I know I’ve been neglecting this blog for a long time. As far as outlets go, I haven’t had a chance to use this one ever since the events that transpired right before my birthday. Events that have yet to come to pass. Thing is, I do want to talk about all the things that are floating around in my head. Things that have nothing to do with my own depressed psyche. The world has rightly changed since that point and I do need to address those points as well.
For instance, I think it has become increasingly obvious that world is being driven to a dystopia described by Aldous Huxley cult classic science fiction novel, Brave New World. I’d like to talk about it, yet I can’t find the words nor the counterargument that would make for an interesting writeup. As much as I would like to argue with myself that humanity is blindly driving itself to a very scary future, I can’t find anyone willing to talk about it because it’s either too heavy for them or just too depressing to think about or they just plain haven’t read Brave New World before. So what’s left but the very thing I’m good at sharing with myself, which are my feelings?
Let’s start with this one, I feel that I was born ahead of my time.
As much as I would like to better myself, it isn’t without having my own ideals challenged constantly by people who would either think differently or have a more evolved ideal to mine. After all, the only real way anyone would progress as an individual is if they prove themselves through conflict, regardless of whether it is through fire and brimstone or the existential search of a truth. I may sit on my high tower believing that I have the better grasp on things, but there is no way to know for sure until I run it through the mill. Something I lack and have been lacking for a long time.
I wish that at the end of the day, I am able to do my part in proving not just my point, but in doing something about what I find greatly disturbing in the world around me. I know I was born for far greater things in life and if the gauntlet that I’ve been constantly run through is any indication, I was never meant for a simple happy existence. Give me that chance to better myself even further still. There is still so much left for me to accomplish. I just need your help to make it all a reality.