People expect a lot of things when they are at a party or at the bar. If you’re at a party that is IN a bar and you are drinking, rest assured that you will get a lot of prepositions…more so when you’re a girl.
However I am not a girl so it’s pretty safe to say that I won’t get hit on my some really nice girl who shares the same tastes as me let alone get any proposals for me to sleep with someone that night. Instead, being the person that I am with the life that I have, I end up drinking Jim Bean with my lecturers while shooting pool and getting propositions like this:
“How would you like to be a lab demonstrator for me next semester?”
Right…rest assured I can never have a social life beyond that because I mean look at me right now, people half my age have a better, bigger social life than me and what I’m doing is adding more responsibility that effectively freezes whatever social life I have.
Not that I can complain to begin with.
After all…it’s not like I have much of a social life aside from going on dates with friends who are intimately unavailable. That and the fact that all the girls I know in my life are either taken, not interested in a relationship or physically unreachable. Most guys wonder how is it I have the ability to win the trust of almost any girl I meet. I wonder how is it I have become a guy most girl friends have considered “one of the girls”.
I suppose I am thankful for having that much luck with women in the first place.
After all, any geek like me would be grateful.
But it doesn’t discount the possibility that I would probably spend the rest of my life surrounded by girls and still be single in the first place. It’s kinda sad when you look at it that way and realise that I’m not by any chance gay and that as much as I can be well behaved enough to be one of the girls…I’m still a guy with guy moments.
Like last night.
At the end of it all, a life is a life and all I can do is live every moment. In any case, at least I slept in the bed of the girl I came home with and to top that up I have a career-wise job opportunity to really work towards. That’s a pretty good night for a guy who drank a lot and still didn’t even do as much as got tipsy.
But does it mean anything?
Well…I guess not. Not when the things I’m looking for is still out there out of my reach. But that’s tomorrow and the day after and after and after.
Today is what it is.
The future is a different story.