The Last Anniversary Of My New Life

When you’ve reached four years of being in a new place, calling it a new home is no longer just something you say to comfort the decisions you made that lead to this point. For better or for worse, for all that you’ve experienced being where you are for so long. It no longer is a new home anymore. It has become your home.


As I sit here waiting to begin the next step of my experiments, in my office, in the lab, in university, in Wagga, in Australia. I can’t but realize that the last 4 years has been such a long time. It doesn’t feel like it flew right past, it just feels like I’ve lived so much in those 4 years. And why not? It was here that I took the chance to be everything I couldn’t be back in Malaysia.


Here I stretched my hand and felt more at home than a place where I was raised for 21 years. Here I endured a pain that changed everything. Here I found another chance for redemption and peace. Here is where I defined myself even more as the person I am. Here is where I am accepted as the person I am. Here is where I ended an old life. Here is where I started something new.

Beached happy

Here is where I am and in a world where home is where the heart belongs, maybe the memories that you make on your own terms carry with them more significance than experiences you lived through simply because you had no control over them. I think it is suffice to say that I don’t have to keep commemorating the events that have lead to this point. Whatever I have done in the last 4 years is more than enough to say my life now isn’t at a beginning but at the long winding road. The chapter of my life has at least reached the interesting middle. That which I can look forward for.

The end of the new and the beginning of else entirely.

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  2. “The chapter of my life has at least reached the interesting middle.” – Good for you and well done you’ve got to where you are!!!It takes courage to step on that unknown and long winding road but I find that sometimes it takes even more strength to stay on it.

  3. sometimes in life decisions in life can only b analyzed years down the road. but u seem like a person who is bound to succeed. 🙂 best wishes

  4. Dora: Thanks. 🙂 While I don’t know about courage to keep staying on the path. I do know it takes a remarkable amount of stubbornness and a marked insanity to keep to the guns. Maybe there isn’t much difference in both anyway.

    Bengbeng: What I’ve learnt over the years is that it doesn’t take years to realize that it doesn’t take years. It can happen now if we want it to. We just have to step up to the plate and make it happen, regardless of the cost. 🙂

  5. WOW.. While I hate to say this, I think I am already feeling in 3 months, what you’re feeling in 4 years. But of course, I don’t think, at this moment, that I could do what you’re doing, simply because I have a different set of responsibilities and commitments 🙁

    But I wish you all the best in everything you do, Ed. You;ve worked hard to be where you are today, I know, and you deserve it 😀

  6. Thanks. 🙂 Though that kind of living is a matter of perspective. We all do what we need to do and at the end of it, it’s how we appreciate it that makes all the difference in how we live. 🙂

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