Bad things happen all the time and all you can do is live with it. But when worse things happen in one day…how do you live with it?

I don't know.

As far as I can recall, things like this have been happening to me on this date for the past 17 years…and all I can do is ride it out, knowing the eventuality and catasstropic effect that this date would bring to me.

I hate the fact I have to keep cleaning up messes.

I hate the fact that I have to swollow what I want for what's right to do.

I hate failing in things that I worked hard in trying to achieve.

I hate today.

And there is nothing I can do to stop it from happening.