That's all I ever wanted. Not the fact that there are people coming up to me telling me what I did wrong. Not people telling me what they think is right. Not people assuming they have the answers for things they don't know about my life. Not people telling me things I would already have known.

Just people who would stand by me in spite of who I am.

To the rest of you, I wouldn't really say sorry because well…having to constantly defend my own actions and my own feelings is not exactly my idea of comfort especially from people who would want me to call them friends.

But to Dee, Kristine, Didi, Tracy and Shana.

I am sorry for how I was yesterday, especially to how I hard I was on some of you. I know I can be a stubborn pig especially when it comes to having people care for me. But it doesn't mean I don't realise you do try to care for me. Enough to listen to me and put up with all that frustration and anger I have. Enough to know how to hold on long enough for me to calm down. Enough to call me even though it's going to cost you money

Enough to be the friend I need.

That was all I was asking.

You all may not have enough strength to keep me up all the time, but you care enough to try and pull back from completely falling over and that's a pretty hard to do when the rest of life seems to be bent on making sure I fall flat over with what is going on.

Enough to make sure that I'm back on my feet now always here to be that friend you relied on me on to be all this time to watch your own stubborn backs.

Thanks for being there.

It means a lot to me.

More than I can ever put it down in this post.

It means a hell lot.