If there are days when life hits you in the nuts when you're not looking. This is one of those days. I didn't expect it. I dont think I expected it. I don't will ever expect it. But it came, it saw and right now I feel like throwing up.

I guess the only good thing that's happening so far is the fact I'm forcing myself to do nothing because nothing can be done for now. It's moments like this where the situation has become completely out of our hands and the only thing we can do is to painfully wait until we can work on something. For now though, I am stuck in this limbo of shock and insecurity, forcing myself not to think of it.

But I'm only human. There is only so much I can do before I give out. I just hope by that time, I'll be able to come up with something to do with it. I can only hope.