She has become particularly high strung. Elements that wouldn’t, shouldn’t bother a normal sane person is starting to annoy her in ways even I never thought possible. Or course, it should be said that with my friend’s wedding happening in less than a month, it might be understandable. It also should be said that my definition on what’s normal and sane isn’t exactly a yardstick standard either.
With friends and people I know getting married of late, it’s not hard to imagine the future of my own relationship. No longer is it at a point where we’re not certain if we’re right for each other. Neither are we at a point where couples drown themselves in the intoxicating scent of love that’s nauseating to everyone else around them. As unorthodox this relationship was from the start, it has grown to be something solid and enduring, yet at the same time, grounded at its roots.
There is no doubt in my mind that I want to spend the rest of my life with Mel if she’ll let me. Though there is a certain ironic humour to found in an emotional man unafraid to express his feelings who’s dating a cold woman afraid at the very idea of a committing relationship. Yet despite the differences, we’ve hit off in ways that surprise even us. Through thick and thin, good and especially the bad, we’ve always seem to find one each others company one comfort to always turn to. If there was any reason to stand by a person now, I don’t think I can ever connect with anyone else as perfectly as I do, here and now.
With our relationship now, short of joint accounts, a ring and a need to sound proof the house, we know what we can expect from a matrimonial life. So it’s baffling for me to see people lose themselves to prepare for a day which follows the same lines as any other celebration of love. To see bonds stress under the impact of a day that’s supposed to mean something good. It doesn’t make sense. At least not for me. Not where I’m standing.
Maybe when the time comes, it’ll be my turn to face that fire. Being unorthodox as I am, there is bound to be more than a few problems that aren’t in the book. But for now what’s important is the road to that moment. There is a lot more to build on before we get to that point. So at least when the time comes, saying “I do” is just a formality for the sake of a tradition which either one of us can do without.