That would explain why no one commented. At least the problem is solved, but it would have been good for someone to have told me that they couldn’t access my permalinks let alone comment if they wanted to. I don’t check my blog as much as I used to, which I can only assume is good for my life but bad for my blog. How good that is on a long run. I don’t know…but what I do know is that this time, all the rules have changed.
Something’s different. I know it. I can feel it. The world in which I know. The blogosphere that I leave my thoughts to. It’s all different. It’s not just me that’s changed. It’s something else, something all around me. Although maybe it’s the fact that I see things differently that gives everything a new sense of perspective. But even so, nothing is quite the same anymore.
Maybe it’s that for the most part, friends are moving on. People I envy. People I have mutual confidance in. People who at the end of it find out that they too have lives of their own are moving on. The niche that I have dwelled in for so long is finally moving on to the point whereby blogging while part of our lives is an expendable part of our lives. Before this I couldn’t imagine what it would be like to not be able to blog. I couldn’t see the other side of the narssicistic pleasure that soothes our ego and for those few moments, makes us believe that our opinions are worth something and that people give a damn.
Probably people do give a damn and I do like that a lot, but the fact of the matter is, you can’t rely on it forever. I’m beginning to understand that it doesn’t matter what you do or how you do it. I’m beginning to understand that given the life I can have now, blogging has become an expendable part of my life. The net has become an expendable part of my life.
As time goes by, I can only picture the amount of…things that will come my way. As it is now, given the life I’m living, it isn’t that I don’t want to share with people, it’s that I just don’t have the freedom as I used to have to do what I would like to do. There are some responsibilities far greater than the ones that I have been hanging on to and there isn’t enough time in the world to do everything at once. You got to make the better choices and I think I’m already making them. It’s just sad that those choices don’t allow me to stay online as much as I would like to…like some of the better of you. I envy that.
Nothing is quite the same anymore. The small part of our blogosphere has become a different place since we’ve moved on. People change. People stay the same. People move on. People get left behind. People stay interesting. People stay mundane. People get busy living. People get busy dying. People grow older, but at the end of it, how many people grow up?
I know I’m just starting to.