Alright alright…I know I just blogged…but like I said, I haven’t really blogged in a long time and it would be poor blogging conduct if I didn’t at least write some sort of Christmas post on the eve of Christmas itself. It’s just…well…given the past 4 weeks events that have been revolving around so far. I just think that the people could use a little thought of what Christmas was supposed to mean.
Even if it’s just one mind out of six billion.
I don’t know what’s going on with the world around me. As it is…people I know are pissed at things. Relationships…including mine are falling or have fell apart and well…people are becoming as apathic as they come. So all that’s left for the spirit of Christmas is the mass commercial consumerism that advocates buy more and be happy.
Not much spirit in that season.
So where does that leave us now? The only warmth left in the season seems to be the weather. Almost everywhere I look people I know seems to be too self-centered about their own plight to actually care about what should matter most.
The people who care for you.
I remember a time when I still had that faith. When I still believed in something bigger and more magical in the world. When I believed that we couldn’t die and that everything is possible. Those were times when we were still children. Then we happened to run smack into reality, bled out and alot of us lost that faith.
I know I did.
But…somewhere along the way, I found something to believe in again. Not in others, not in things or in religion (God help me if it was). But faith in the one thing that is always there. Faith in myself. Ok…how does that relate to not being selfish? Hear me out first.
Faith in yourself means the belief that you can succeed in whatever you want. That hope is always there for you. Miracles don’t happen on their own. If it does…then that’s great…but don’t hold your breath it will come for you just like that. Miracles come with effort and effort is driven by will and faith. Think about it.
If you don’t believe that you can do it, would you ever come close to suceeding?
Just because it seems impossible. Just because you’re angry or frustrated or even blinded by pain doesn’t mean things that you want won’t come true. The spirit of Christmas isn’t about getting what you want. It’s about faith in what matters. Remembering the times when the gift of giving meant more to yourself without anything in return. When all that mattered most was to see another person happy.
Because you made them happy.
No one else.
When did we lose that and started to only care about our own self?
I don’t know. All I know is that in the end, we recieve what we only set out to give. We gain what we sacrificed in equal value. We earn exacty what we worked towards. We get exactly what we deserve. It doesn’t matter when we get it…we still get it. in the end.
So for me…I have faith in what I do. I have believe in something and yes…despite the pain…I still hold on to hope. It doesn’t matter that I don’t get what I wish for Christmas. It matters that I made the person I care and love happy. It matters more to see her smile knowing the effort I put into it. It matter because I can tell myself…I did this. I made her happy. No one else but me.
Miracles do happen.
Just depends on how strong you hold on to what you believe.
Saying that…I like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. May its spirit never end as the day does.