Choices in life. That’s what we all have. Choices. The power to choose what we want and how we want it. Even in seemingly impassable areas of our lives where we find ourselves at a dead end do we still have choices to make. Do we try and go foward? Do we give up? Choices, that is the price of life that we have, the key that defines us as who we are and where our destiny lies.
Again I am faced with a dilemma in my life, not as emotionally wrecking as the last time I was back in this position, still…it’s a life defining time nevertheless. Do I stand where I am and try and pull myself back up in life or do I risk the moment and see what may come for a future even I can’t predict if I wanted to?
Choices, choices. Though it turns out that sometimes the hardest choices to ever make in life are deceptively the easiest choices to choose from. It’s just that everyone already made their choices in life from the moment they face their problems, the real fuss comes when you actually have to put their choices into action…then most people are faced with something they don’t expect. The fact that they still have to make a choice to overcome the problems in making their first choice.
And so everything else that follows it comes from the moment you make your first choice in the matter. Choices within choices within choices. That’s what life is really all about. That’s what we have to live with for as long as we can keep living.
So where do I stand now? I made my choice. I’m going back. Going back because I want a better future for myself, going back because right now there is nothing here for me to hold on to and be happy about, going back because there is a risk I have to take for something everyone wants but no one really gets – another chance in life.
At the end of it, I know where I’m heading. I just need to know how I can get there in one piece. Though it shouldn’t be so hard. After all, it’s one choice after another. We all know what we have to do. One way or another…everything works out, it’s just whether it will be a choice you can live with or a choice you’re going to hate yourself for the rest of your life. Because being human, it isn’t about choosing to start the things we live with…it’s about how we chose to end the things we live with.