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Edrei Zahari, post graduate honours student in medical science at Charles Sturt University, passed away yesterday afternoon from multiple complications due to work and social life. He was 25 years old.
Passionate and introspective, Edrei hid within him a selfless capacity to change the lives of all those around him. But in the final months leading to his untimely departure, he began to reveal a lighter side of his psyche. A sense of cheerful brightness that surfaced in his Arthurian quest to find a measure of balance in the face of hard responsibility and a deepening melancholy. Sadly, his journey to find peace in this world ended late Thursday afternoon in complete and utter failure.
Yet in defeat, Edrei still secretly and stubbornly clung to the belief that life in all it's purpose and desires holds in it the capacity for free will. That regardless of the accidents and events that seem to liter the road ahead, it is our choice that ultimately determines where we stand in life, that even we ourselves have room for our own purposes and desires.
When asked about her beloved partner, Melissa Gan, legal executive in patent and intellectual property rights at an established law firm, described Edrei as an unbelievably solid pillar of strength in the last months of his life. "He would sacrifice his darker moods to brighten up everyone's day" Ms Gan noted.
Edrei ultimately concluded that if we are to live our lives free to what we want, sometimes we have to stop giving in to our initial impulses. For the greater desire of our destiny is worth sacrificing the smaller ones in our lives, to which as a scientist, Edrei called those smaller desires "causality", to us, we often refer as "fate".
Right, before I get any more people shocked about this. I'd like to say that I'm not dead and as far as I know I'm not terminally ill. I wanted to write this because it's been stewing on my mind all week and I've been meaning to write my own obituary for a while. So take it with a pinch of salt alright? We all have our own forms of expression. Mine just happens to be a tad bit morbid than normal.
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! T.T this isn’t exactly ‘interesting’ or ‘out of the ordinary. I’m actually rather angry you wrote this.
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Good luck.
yc
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Hello – i’m a stalker here for soooo long but i’m compelled to write in this time. What are you thinking???
I like “He would sacrifice his darker moods to brighten up everyone’s day” – hahahaha. Given your morbid mood, that is a real ‘sacrifice’..
Am relieved that you r okay and now i’m wondering what sort of obit i would like when my time comes up…
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Okay, for once there I was wondering.. how did this dude write his own death note, or was it someone else who did it. I guess I had to read until the end to find out that he’s alive. Nice one I guess.
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It did startle me a little, but then I gotta say, that’s a good piece of writing there. It kinda shows what you valued in life, what you were passionate about and what did you stand up for.
I’ll leave you with a quote from one of my favourite movies, Serendipity :
You know the Greeks didn’t write obituaries, they only asked one question after a man died, ‘Did he have passion?
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o.O
EDREI!!!
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Claire: It’s not supposed to be interesting or out of the ordinary. It’s supposed to be what it is.
But we settled the angry part already.
Yuen-Chi Lian: Good luck at?
Kate: Thanks for commenting for the first time then.
I was thinking that I needed to say a few things that were on my mind. It’s nice to know that we can have something nice to say about ourselves when the moment is done and gone. I just have a different appreciation of passing on that’s all.
Hallaj: Well it wasn’t a practical joke or anything. Just, something I wanted to do.
Uncannyman: That was a nice movie even if it frustrated me to no end. You know what I’m talking about. That’s what life is all about, doing things because you want them to be done.
Eli James: ELI!!!
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Edrei, I’m a relatively new and casual reader of your blog and I must say the post had me a little concerned at first. Now that I’ve read the comments and your reaction, I find it creative and interesting. It’s just that so many people have died in my world recently that it felt a little insensitive. Oh well, blogging is about personal expression. I hope you get good things fro those thoughts, like what you ought to LIVE for
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I’m sorry, but this is neither creative nor entertaining. It’s sick and there is absolutely no reason that you should write a post with a title such as this. You’re better than that. We have enough crazy shit going on in our lives and don’t need people having us concerned that we lost a good person.
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Damien: Sorry about that Damian. I understand what it’s like to lose people you hold dear and for what it’s worth, it is the absence of life that puts living into perspective. It’s just one of those things we just say and move on.
Scrivs: I fully understand Scrivs and I won’t try and defend my actions that way. Perhaps the title was indeed a little to…”in your face” and I can see who there are people who would find this distasteful. I just needed to write this from every fibre of my being. I just didn’t think that people would pay any attention. Sometimes it’s easier to ask and understand why it was done. We all have our reasons. I don’t think I ever explained mine.
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Alas poor Edrei, I knew him well.
But I also knew him to be a geek. Therefore like my very own beloved Lazarus PC, he will rise soon from the dead, and continue to confuse and entertain.
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You call it “distastful”. It’s extremely insensitive and dissing every reader of your blog on this planet. Writing your own obit is a creative and philosophical process; choosing to title it thus and encouraging loyal readers to assume you’re dead is not remotely funny or interesting. Count me as ticked.
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Cléa: At last, here is someone with a good sense of humour. Something I find strangely lacking in people today. People don’t take things lightheartedly these days. Something that should be sad and mournful.
Auburn: I don’t see how it’s dissing every reader of my blog. My loyal readers would know, because they would have read and understood, post after post, that I have a very dark psyche and morbid sense of humour. The only question to ask is “why didn’t I do this sooner?” So respectfully, no. It’s fine by this account.
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But since we all know that you aren’t dead, why are we still “concentrating” on the “passing away” part? Shouldn’t we all rejoice that a new Edrei is born?
Congrats, Ed, for a second chance in life
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you are one highly fascinating fellow, Edrei. I have been a reader since finding your “I am that boy” post. That said, i find this post (hell, your blog) a cry for help. Not so much help from people, but your personal spot to flagellate yourself with delightful abandon. Well, take care and I (we) cherish your words. Adieu.
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Pelf: If it’s the number of times I’ve faced death itself, this wouldn’t be the second chance. This would literally be the forth chance. It’s a good way to look at it though, I wouldn’t have thought of it. Death and rebirth. The eternal cycle.
Jane: Somehow “flagellate yourself with delightful abandon” sounds so…wrong. Like a fetish we’ve never heard about.
Maybe it is a cry for help. Maybe it’s just a peek into a mind that most people aren’t otherwise interested in seeing. Either way, thanks for having read this far. 
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drama drama drama. i am in favour of your witty piece of writing. introspection and self-reflection is one of the things we can never do enough of.
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Thank you. I appreciate the sentiment.
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