Sometimes in bleakest moments of your life, you need time to step back and look at the big picture of things. Actually, when you come to think of it again…its at times when you are at your lowest when you have to look at the big picture of things in your life.
It’s just the only way you’re going to think of a solution.
Throughout my life, I’ve been a troubleshooter of all sorts of things. The insecure Issues of life, the complications in love, the crises of faith, and even the never ending tech problems. There is not a day that still goes by that I am not knee deep in the personal life of another person regardless of what situation I’m in. In fact…I forgot how all of this started in the first place let alone how many people I have lent a hand over the years. Whether that’s a good thing or not.
I do not know.
What I do know is, it isn’t a question anymore about where I am headed in life. I already made a conscious decision a long time ago that it would be my destiny to help people. The question that still remains unanswered is what would be the final hand to carry out that destiny?
At the back of mind that age old plan of the world is still there. Just me doing what I can to set things right again. Enough talking about how to bring back the civillity and unity of the human race. Enough talk about trying to end stupidity in the world. Enough of all the discussions and ethical issues and just carry it out like a good little soldier I was raised to be.
Of course…the high goals and dreams carry with it a high standard and cost of getting there. Some I have already paid. Some I am still paying. The rest…I don’t even want to imagine what they are. In any case, where I’m standing right now is a very large obstacle which unfortunately is of my own creation. With all the knowledge of the years that came from my troubleshooting experience.
I really don’t know where go from here.
Talk about irony.
So going back to the beginning of the post. It’s time to take a step back and just look at the big picture of things. Life has its own way of working things out whether we realise it or not. It may not be to our own whim and fancy, but…given the right push and turn on your part…it just might turn out to be what you need in the first place.
I guess that’s what I have to do now, seeing that I’m still on holidays, its a perfect time to do so. I’ve got my own time to spare before things will start to heat up and in any case, there are things I need to do to make sure this problem of mine doesn’t spread like the cancer I’m trying to help stop.
Can’t help but wish that my room wouldn’t be so empty.
But needful things often start from that.
And I guess that could be a good thing.