Introspection is often your own worse enemy, especially when those are the only thoughts you have. Guest blogging for Lorelle has reminded me of one important thing. “You can’t always put a schedule on blogging”. Being that what I write about it always driven by my feelings and thoughts of the moment, having press myself for that next good post only finds myself trapped in the still waters of a departed muse.
It’s one thing to realize that the quality of your work goes up and down with the days, but it’s another to do the same thing in place of someone else. While you can do a half-assed job and get away with it, there are always consequences to actions like that. Besides, I’m too much of a responsible person to let quality slip. Like I said, introspection is it’s own worse enemy.
Yet, despite everything that’s happening at once, I have to remind myself that I have no obligation to blog, at least for other people. While some things need to be fulfilled, the end result would always be my own convoluted distractions laid out here to dry. Whatever the topic may be, at least they have a point, more to it, they have a purpose. It might not always be clear to those that read it, but it will always be clear to me.
Always…that is, until now.
Maybe it’s time to take a step back and find myself again. Maybe it’s time to stop and look back at the larger picture. At least before everything else stops making sense. At least before the last bastion of my sanity becomes a collection of meaningless words. I wouldn’t want it to come to that.