As I wrote in my previous post a few days ago, there is a certain level of hypocrisy when it comes to the level of being who you are in the personal posts you write. It's hard to gain much support and attention from the blogging public when a large part of your life is a series of unfortunate events. Most people have very low limits when it comes to dealing with other people's melancholic personal lives.

So here comes the 64 thousand dollar question.

How much of your principles in writing who you are do you have to compromise to gain enough popularity for the support you need to snap you out of your melancholic state?

Has the essance of blogging gone so far out the window that we even have to wear masks in what we put down on our blogs to get along with the general blogging community?

Even as I write this post, there is a part of my mind that has deeply considered shortchanging the current way I blog for the more favourable ways of attracting public attention which is to:

1. Write happy posts that would make people fall of their chair laughing.
2. Write insane posts that depict how unstable your mind is.
3. Put up lots of pictures (edited and non-edited) of crazy things that would make people's eyes pop out of their skulls.
4. Write about your sexual life.

Now I have avoided listing writing about thought-provoking posts here because in essance that is what I have been doing ever since I started blogging in the first place. It just doesn't seem to have the kind of attractive effect I would expect from people because at the end of it all, most people just skim through the posts subconsciously looking for the 4 things above.

But the point in all this is that at the end of the day there are people like me who doesn't have the general things to be well known in the masses. So in the end it becomes a power struggle of principles to balance between a deserved attention and underdog obscurity. I for one at least startd blogging because it's a big world out there and I figure I could at least find people who could understand and support me for who I am.

Results have been disappointing thus far.

It's just frustrating to know that the people who in my mind draw the biggest crowds are the people who have everything I don't naturally have. It's frustrating to know I started my social life online to escape the widespread superficial outlook in real life to find the same thing creeping into personal blogs today.

And it's not just me…there are plenty of people who blog out there with the same purpose of having and needing some acceptance from the community but instead fall prey to such obscurity through a system that thrives on such large outspoken voices. So it comes to this, would this breed people who begin to blog for the same reason people in real life pretend to cheery and happy in the face of the things that really matter?

I say it has already begun.

You can't fight a system that is built on our own narcissism and natural tendancy to blank out things that use our brains. I should know…I've been doing that for a large part of my life. So instead we slowly begin to put on masks around the way write just to make sure we get people's attention or get along with everyone. It doesn't matter what we think ourselves…as long as other people don't count us out to obscurity.

That becomes the blogging "fad" I so hate.

So it comes full circle to the beginning. Would you sacrifice blogging about who you are when your life hasn't been a particular walk in the park in favour some recognition from the surrounding community?

For me…no.

If I can never be as outspoken as the rest of the interesting blogs out there. Then there is no way I can pretend to be otherwise. I can't do it in real life and I sure as hell can't do it online…not with the life I'm living…not with the principles I'm having…not with being who I am.

All I can do is make sure the people around me who are willing to listen stay true to who they are rather than resort to hiding themselves away for people to like them.

All I can do it keep hoping people would openly recognise, appreciate and support me for who I am in my life as I put it down here in my posts.

All I can hope is there is I don't want to be an obscure underdog any more.

All I can hope is I can bask in the sun like everyone else.

But that's all I can do.

The rest is up to you.